Losing Sophie

In an hour and a half my vet will be here and my Sophie who is napping will soon be asleep forever.  I can't pretend I'm okay with any of this.  My puffy eyes and my throbbing head should be enough to prove that today is something I don't want to do.  But wanting has nothing to do with it because this needs to be done.  Sophie would hold out forever or until her little body absolutely couldn't take the pain anymore to stay by my side.  But I don't want her to do that for me...  So today I'll take her pain and I will carry it for her so her little body can rest...  God grant me the courage to let her go with grace.